Post by garf on Mar 4, 2019 14:15:55 GMT
Hi everyone! New guy here.
I need an outlet and I can’t think of a group of folks who would understand more, so here goes.
I’ve always been a pretty big fan of Chris. Unfortunately, I didn’t learn just how big until he died. My first tip off of me not realizing how big a fan I am is that when he died, 5 friends and my wife texted it to me almost immediately. Well, shit, I had no idea I was such an outward fan so much so that everyone around me knew.
My second tip off was that was driving a delivery truck at the time. Whenever a musician dies, if I have any of their music, everything I own gets played as a tribute, usually an hour or 2. Chris’ lasted 2 working days. And I worked long days. I did not realize I had acquired this much over the years.
I’ve never had big feelings or emotions from a celebrity death. I mean, I don’t know them, right? Until now. It’s not the same as when a loved one/friend passes but it’s definite sorrow. It’s like something I never knew was necessary is missing. I identify with this man’s writing so much and that terrifies me because of what he did.
At the initial time of his death, I handled it ok, did my little tribute and moved on. But recently I got the itch for some Audioslave. That eventually led me down a Chris Cornell wormhole. I dug deep for every track, album or acoustic performance that I may not have had. I never went into his acoustic world whole lot. I am completely blown away by what I had missed and it’s bringing the emotions back again. It feels fresh again. Maybe worse than when it happened. I’m feeling a bit odd and lost, over a musician. It’s kind of weirding me out.
Anyway, thanks to anyone who made it all the way through reading. I just needed to vent.
I need an outlet and I can’t think of a group of folks who would understand more, so here goes.
I’ve always been a pretty big fan of Chris. Unfortunately, I didn’t learn just how big until he died. My first tip off of me not realizing how big a fan I am is that when he died, 5 friends and my wife texted it to me almost immediately. Well, shit, I had no idea I was such an outward fan so much so that everyone around me knew.
My second tip off was that was driving a delivery truck at the time. Whenever a musician dies, if I have any of their music, everything I own gets played as a tribute, usually an hour or 2. Chris’ lasted 2 working days. And I worked long days. I did not realize I had acquired this much over the years.
I’ve never had big feelings or emotions from a celebrity death. I mean, I don’t know them, right? Until now. It’s not the same as when a loved one/friend passes but it’s definite sorrow. It’s like something I never knew was necessary is missing. I identify with this man’s writing so much and that terrifies me because of what he did.
At the initial time of his death, I handled it ok, did my little tribute and moved on. But recently I got the itch for some Audioslave. That eventually led me down a Chris Cornell wormhole. I dug deep for every track, album or acoustic performance that I may not have had. I never went into his acoustic world whole lot. I am completely blown away by what I had missed and it’s bringing the emotions back again. It feels fresh again. Maybe worse than when it happened. I’m feeling a bit odd and lost, over a musician. It’s kind of weirding me out.
Anyway, thanks to anyone who made it all the way through reading. I just needed to vent.
